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[smurfqueen2948]

well, i have 2 kids with bella. but ive never even gotten to see them. they are 5-6 now. and yeah shes a high profile whore. fucks anything that moves. its actually on 8 different levels where she fucks someone. and that goes for any woman ive met. theyve slept with 10000 if not more. its disgusting. threesomes are gross? how about "20 guys 10 girls" orgies? and they all pretend to be innocent and even virgins. its weird. bella breeds cats actually. she cant live on it because you need to take care of them for an entire year. but i told her lately to stop with the drugs and neuroleptics and get OUT of the mafia! its possible ive heard of it why not? you can quit sects you can change your religion. even if she fails so what? at least she did a try towards freedom. like they say, "its better to die on your feet than live on your knees". and im so tired of women calling me gay. as soon as they get tired of me that flails all over the place. 1 chick started with it now everyone does it. yeah even julia (my first girlfriend when i was 30) did it even bella. bella even said i should hook up with some male celebrity. and they all love anal sex of course. yeah thats my biggest pet peeve. everyones obsessed with asses and poo, they pretend not to but their character speaks fully what its about. we are in soddom and gomorra nothing else. its the end times. why cant they just DEW the entire population of earth? and being on some "chicks level" is merely taking as many drugs as her. i didnt drink coffee until my thirties, yeah tried some cigs as well. boom, chicks like me. they always abandoned me before. ive actually made several chicks pregnant, but its a weird sort of one night stand, when ive impregnated them, usually always the first time we fuck, they just abandon me. really, im tired of it. i have written my will. i figure in a years time ill die. im so tired of this shit hole. theres no light at the end of the tunnel its poo at the end of the asshole. anyway thanks for being for real, never meet people like that online or irl. the sickest part is having to do drugs, to "summon" bella i made homemade opium and injected gasoline. im not joking it was horrific. and then women being stranded bluewhales in bed. and its not just bed its everywhere in every way. women are lazy thats it. they want it all handed to them. even if its just fucking screwing in a screw in a painting. how the fuck does that have to do with anything? its just ultimate stupid. and people keep getting stupider the more healthy i am. i do calisthinetics several hours per day and have quit wheat. sugar isnt bad wheat makes you inherently lonely and obsessed with sex, like a teddybear. ive quit fapping as a whole, and the single life is 1000x worse than watching porn. you sleep with someone that has no meaning to you. i want character development before sleeping with a chick. both with julia and bella we did no drugs, didnt even have music on when having sex. it was sorta beautiful and they were as well. but i get tired so easily. like a month ago i videochatted with a chick. i did not say "show your tits" (i did that once in the 90s and never again) we just chatted for an hour or two. then she started spamming "coming soon" and i fapped about her. that felt sort of ok, it wasnt a waste of time. but when i really went hardcore on workouts women BEGGED me to fap about them! yes the best loosh the overlords want is infinite porn watching or infinite fuckbuddies. quite frankly im tired of this shit world i want to rebirth into something better. spirits have told me ill get to be a lesbian next life, weird but at least its something different. im tired of doing everything for my women and getting nothing back except bitterness. when you work out you really see the true meanings of people and the world. and i dont like what i saw. im a truther and now i only believe in 1 conspiracy theory. simulation theory. even my favourite thinker since the nullties says "the theory of life could include error" and philip k dick a real good author did a press release in 1977 saying "this is a computer programmed world". nietzzsche didnt even BELIEVE in free will! anyway ill keep doing my art music poetry and i love suno.com. it reads your soul like any ai or computer. usually for computers it means you get SHIT download speeds even on a fucking 100mbps connection, if you exist then they speed goes down. but ai mixes and matches anything thats ever happened to you. i have made almost 200 ai songs and i keep listening to them and not much else. i dont really need people. each time i go on social media i just get disapointed, more and more all the time. all those rightwing trolls? does anything else exist online? did all leftwingers commit suicide during biden? do rightwingers only get recommended by the algorithm trans male to females and lesbians? its a whole conspiracy in itself. rightwing means conservatist theyre afraid of that word, they want to conserve how it was since the middle ages with archaic brutal unhuman law rules, and of course right wing means feudalist where 99% are slaves and everything is ruled by nobility and priests. and im so tired of peoples WPM. they write at 1wpm at most, i see it all over the internet. even in chatting where they "only love" me. they take literally 30 mins to write a few words. i write max 130wpm maybe 70-100 depending on. EVERYONE is so fucking stupid! i really just want to kill myself and stop existing. im sure the next life will be even shittier. i have negative loosh surely. you know whats weird? i get 1 aspie comment ever recommended on facebook. it said "neuropaths seem to be use lies as a currency". i get that now. for everything that EXISTS, there is a lie attached to it. you cannot do anything else but lie. and its very intricate for normal happenstance to exist in the world you learn millions even billions of lies. also how to act how to look what to say in responses online. ive seen through it all. and im so tired of it. anyway im sure you wont care to respond. "free speech" and 1500 chars max? thats sad. this took like half an hour to write at most. people can drink for hours, smoke for hours, play computer games for hours. but actually putting effort into writing something? oh no. its an emoji at most.